I want to offer my deepest sympathies for your loss. Mrs. Holdren sounded like an incredible woman. The loss of someone so dear is one of the hardest things we will ever face. However something that has brought me much personal comfort are the words at Revelation 21:4 "God will wipe every tear from their eyes and death will be no more... The former things have passed away." Death is our worst enemy however soon it will be gone forever and those dear ones we have lost in death will be brought back to life through a resurrection. (John 5:28,29) How we long for that day.